Withered Flower

I wrote this short poem in 2019. The backstory is that I had been dating a guy for over 5 years, and our relationship was on the rocks at the time. It was over, but because we didn't talk about it and officially ended the relationship, it's safe to say that we didn't have the proper closure. I just found out he was seeing another girl because someone commented on his Facebook post and I stalked that girl and saw pictures of them, there's this one picture where they were in the hospital and my then bf was there with her like a good bf would. It's as if someone stabbed an icy dagger into my heart. So I went on a dating site and met an interesting guy with whom I talked about various topics almost every day.

In the midst of my long-term relationship's heartbreak, I kind of shifted my attention to this guy, which made me feel a little better because we had fun talking together. That went on for how many months until he suddenly stopped talking to me for some reasons. I was devastated as I was emotionally vulnerable at the time. Now that I think about it, what happened was that I wasn't completely over my ex, I didn't go through a healing process, and I was in a state of denial. So when the guy I met online stopped talking to me, I started to feel real pain from my breakup, and to add insult to injury, my ex and his new girl were happy and their young relationship was going strong, while I was left alone and lonely.

"Everything around her seems to have changed"

I'm not a control freak, but my ex always does what I ask. Then there was that one time I asked him for a favour and he said no, which was the first time he said no to me in more than 5 years of being together, which I understand because he is already seeing someone else, and no words can describe the betrayal I felt at the time. This is how I came up with this quote, "Everything around her seems to have changed."

To those who are experiencing heartbreak, all I can say is that change is inevitable.